New York is a ___ place.

So its been exactly 50 days since I first came to NY for school. And wow, id have to say I've learned and grown so much. Its really hard to say how I feel about New York. I feel like it changes like everyday. Especially when its that time of the month. Like today.. Me, Tiff, Lidya, Skylar, and Juno went to Korea town to get dinner. And WOW korea town is SO FRKING busy. i absolutely do not like it. Normally I dont think it would affect me as much but today, it being a really "bleh" kind of day, really had an affect on me.
 Usually on Saturdays i feel a lot more down than I usually feel because Im usually staying in the dorms all day, doing homework.  But today i dont know why, but it was just not a really high spirited day. And i realized after coming back from korea town that it could have to do with the fact that i skipped doing insanity for two days. So with that in mind along with very down-spirited emotions, i got up and worked out. And wah laaa, my emotional mindset was gone! I think when i dont work out and just sit and eat and work, i feel a lot more down and unproductive.
But back to Korea town making me feel uncomfortable. The really crowded, korean people filled korea town really made me think of home and it also made me really homesick. Homesick for the suburbs, not necessarily home home, even though i do really miss home. Its weird how Korea town made me feel more like i was in busy New York than the actual streets of New York made me feel. It could be because of how crowded korea town is because its literally just one street, which is something I'm not used to being in. On the way back to our dorms, I was really worn out and felt really alone even though i was with friends. So when i got back to the dorms I finally  cracked and a couple of tears came out. But because i didnt want to sulk in my feelings of loneliness, I called my one and only sister. She helped me and just the fact that I have someone to talk to and really open my feelings to made me feel a lot better and less alone.
While i was washing up after sweating from my work out, i turned on the christian radio on my itunes and David Crowder Band's song How He loves came on. Listening to the lyrics really warmed my heart.  Especially because I havent listened to the song in forever and having forgotten about it for the longest time, it was really nice hearing it. The song reminded me of how God loves and how he's there for us. And immediately my thoughts of loneliness were gone because the fact that "He is jealous for me, loves like a hurricane..." made me re think and it reminded me of the blessing of God's love that God has graciously given to us.
Tomorrow I'm going back to hillsongnyc because its been such a blessing every sunday. Can't wait to be recharged and blessed!!